The postman didn’t come to comfort me

My lover and I used to post letters to each other. Now we hardly utter a word to each other. Towards the end of our relationship, there were no decibels of manic, no traces of anger, nor were there any hint of love loss. He just ended it and that was all to it. There are so many questions I had that he left unanswered, however there is no time to despair and grief. The time will come but not now. Not when there are so many people dependant on me. I refuse these feelings and I shall dismiss them.

The postman came yesterday with a letter for me.

It was a birthday letter. Yes, he broke up with me just days after saying he loves me and days after my birthday. Back to the point, it was a letter from my old school. How thoughtful of them, I thought, but being the conspiracy theorist that I have become, that thought was completely rebutted seconds after it was conceived. There are more things that I want to share with you dear reader however, I am not about too. I will maintain my facade until it is sewn on to me, I will not crumble. Why? Because I love him enough to let him be happy, no  matter how heart breaking it is to know he will never be happy with me.

I’ve lost my lover, but not my best friend.

Dear Best friend,
Should I move on with another guy already? Or should I wait for him? Lets go eat ice cream :D

Dear lover,
Please remember me. Please remember our memories and time together. Remember that we were once everything to one another. We were more than just fingertips and candlewicks, we were forever and we were always. We could still be but only in our memories. I hope one day, you will answer my questions and stop me from wrecking.

Goodbye lover, please be happy.