An essay.

2) Desire to learn and aspire to make it a better world.
 

  I quote Martin Luther King Jr:
                   "I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."

         Good day I bid to all whom are reading this. I have been asked to write about my desire to learn and aspire to make it a better world. Therefore, I have decided to write or should I say type, about a little big dream of mine.

       Malaysia is a wonderful country with an expanding economy and progressive developments. Malaysia is a unique and admirable country that grants people of all races to practice any religion they want. In my opinion, I would call Malaysia, an open-minded country. 
    Sadly, I cannot say the same about most countries in the world as some shun certain religions and their practisers’. I would like to put Islam in the spotlight, as it is the most controversial religion now.
For example, I recall in 2010, there was an attack on the IRS Building in Austin, Texas, by a 53-year-old software Engineer named Joseph Stack. He intentionally crashed a plane unto the building. His actions were the united Nations definition of instilling fear unto people or in short, terrorism, but he was not dubbed a terrorist. Reportedly, an US official said that Mr Stack was not dubbed a terrorist for he was not a Muslim. That report shocked and alerted the world about the close minded-ness and hypocrisy of Americans.
   Like Martin Luther King Jr. I have a dream. A dream that one day all men are seen as equals no matter what race or religion they are. For that dream, I have a burning desire to learn all I can about history, politics and many more subjects that are relevant.
  My desire to learn started when I was a child. At the age of seven, I watched 9/11 on television. I was confused at why  the plane was flying so low and thought that it was just an accident. I turned to my parents for answers, when they said that it was not an accident but a planned attack I was even more confused on why anyone would want to kill so many people. What were they thinking? Don't they have families to? Don't they feel remorse? I had endless questions that even my parents could not answer.
    Therefore, that was how I started wanting to learn. That was how I started asking questions and was aware of the worlds' absurdity. Until today, I have this desire to learn about the minds of these people no matter whom they are and where they come from. I want to learn and be as well educated as possible to achieve my dream because the greatest weapon anyone and everyone can ever have is education. With that weapon in my arsenal I can , hopefully, change the world to a more open and constructive mind-set rather than their already destructive one. With that weapon, I can make the world a better world.

                                                     -Hayani Ishan-

Ali.

My pillar of strength is leaving me for University. The boy whom I left everything and everyone I lived for in High-school to protect him is leaving me and although he is supposed to leave tomorrow, he is still fickle over which university to go to.
Typical him –.-“
But he is the only one I have left. He is the only reason why I get up and put on a brave face for. He was the reason why I walked towards home when I ran away. He is the reason why I have not given up on the program I am in.
I do wonder how I’ll survive because I hate technology. It makes me feel further away from him because although he can be on my laptop screen, but in the end, I’d still feel like a fool who talks to metal and plastic.
His hugs are very important to me.
He makes me feel secure and safe. So, i guess without him that feeling should be gone right? Well yes. I feel like a sitting duck in a cross-fire but I will definitely toughen up because I know he wouldn’t like it if i kept on feeling this way (Y)


So anyway, I hope he takes good care of himself there. He’s at a good university and I’ll definitely be supporting him all the way :D 

To achieve is to believe

The other day, I was checking my twitter stream and i found that a lot of people that I know are getting more and more negative about , not only themselves but, the whole world in general.

The say the words.

I can’t

Don’t you just detest those words?

When you start a sentence with a negative, the results will almost definitely be negative.

Live better, try a neutral. Use the magic word,

I TRIED

If you do, people will be more open to what you say. They will listen or read on and think about it. This way, you get an honest , opinion-based answers instead of a constant compelled negative reaction.

Don’t bring yourself down :) There are people who love you! What am I talking about? well, your parents have not turned you out of the house, have they? They still love you (Y)

With that, I bide an adieu .

P.s: I’ve currently started College. That ostrich reminds me of me.

 

Hi Welcome to Dome Cafe!

     This is Hazmie ( Amie )

Kak Siti    

  Syafiq Shahmi Abang Asri ! (head Chef ) MY first staff meal! AHAHAHAH

 

these are just pictures, I’m toooooo lazy to write anything. Plus , I’m skyping with the most wonderful person i know right now <3

 

INI KERJA BLOGGER MALAS! NAMPAK PERMAINAN DIA?

5/3/12

HEY YOU!

YOU, CHEEKY PERSIAN.

I LOVE YOU.

AND THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT.

Persian made me do this.

Yes, yes, you read the title right. Someone had to make do a blog post. I’ve been busy lately with work and adjusting to it. Not quite there yet though. Proof , is that :

1. I’m writing this on my off day

2. I’m not taking part in the kereta api sarong flash mob because I was too tired to change my off day.

3. I’ve only read the newspaper once this week and I missed my favourite comic strip, Zits, more than I should.

4. I’ve constantly became tired after work. Unlike my co-workers who still can go lepak after work.

Are those enough proof for you? :P Well, you’ll have to be content with them for now.

Here’s the latest news update from Hayani Wide News Sdn Bhd. 

I’m currently working at Dome Cafe. I applied to be a Barista but as we all know, I have never had coffee in my life (except haritu when abang syafiq lied and told me that it was hot chocolate, it tasted bad) Thus, I have absolutely no idea how to make coffee! HAHA. So, I’ve to train first. Meanwhile, I serve as a waitress :D So far, my sifu , Abang Syafiq, has taught me how to make all of the drinks in the tea menu except for the chai latte :)

oh oh oh ! I can also make Cappucino but my foam is horrible. We can’t serve horribly foamed cappuccino to customers can we? :)

Other than that, I now know how to make the perfect mocha and fruit salad, and its awesome!

Sure, it takes up 90% of my time but its fun working there. A real experience and that’s what I wanted. To mingle with these people would be hard for some because they’re from very different backgrounds than our middle and high class city folks. My point of view however is that we should know and understand these people as much as we understand our self. Then and only then will we able to live in absolute peace, because we accept one another and understand what each other want.

I’ll post up pictures of them soon :)

 

Money matters 1

You are currently reading the blog of an inner child who has been given a job. Job. Job. job.

Yes, you read that right. :D I shall soon enter the devious working world of the adults. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH

In my opinion, I think this should be fun. Entertaining customers and serving them with a smile. It seems pretty amusing :P Also, I would be able to know what its like to be in an organisation and to be at the very bottom of the organisation. It sounds gory to many but I am more than willing to take up on this challenge.

BELIEVE IT or not but I am excited to be treated like a slave. Hey , They’re paying me well, giving me food and i get 2 days off per week. I do not think I’ll mind being a slave to that kind of deal. Other than that, I’ll be working at my favourite mall which is a total bonus :D

So peeps,

Oh and, my Harry Potter and Narnia Frenzy has come back. If you’re close to me and I talk to you, expect me to yell out patronuses , spells and “ FOR NARNIA AND FOR ASLAAANNNN!!!!” a lot.

I admit to be addicted to 9gag lately. It cheers me up and makes me realise the reality and negativity of life. WHO CARES?!

OH OH OH AND AND I GOT CALLED BACK FOR AN INTERVIEW FOR A COLLEGE THAT I REALLY WANT TO BE IN!  Be happy for me!

Taking time of to concentrate on myself was a wise move. Now I have a grasp on my life. Not a firm one but not a loose one either :)

I Thank God for the decisions that I’ve made. Even though I rushed and was a lil’ bit forced into it. It was a wise and a breakthrough move.

We’ve got one life, so lets make it worth everyones while :)

People

I have distanced myself from all I used to deem friends/ Good friends/ Great friends/ True friends and people whom I can’t live without. I have done this perversity for reasons that might not seem logical to you or perhaps it is to small or can be corrected but:

I do not need to explain myself because no one asked me personally for an explanation. The lack of curiosity disappoints me. Oh well, everyone is different ^-^

It would be improper for me to rant about it online where everyone can see. I like privacy.

Moving on, I have decided to do whatever it takes to be in the International Baccalaureate Diploma Program at Fairview International School, United World College or Taylors College. I prefer the first two because they are not commercialised and have better qualifications to teach the IBDP. 

Also, I’ve been getting addicted to Word Search again XD My mother likes this. Other than that, I’ve applied for jobs, sent in my college applications and rested. Things I couldn’t do while having distractions around. My mum was right thus I must agree now that the quote “ Mother knows best” is true.

Other than that, I’ve managed to spend more time with my beloved sisters. I must say that yes, they are annoying at times but that's just because I didn’t know what was bothering them. They tolerable now. Nayli is an exception though, Her china-fied mind is too unreasonable at most times. XD

<—Face painting

Well, that is all for now. It is getting late and I have to wake up early and get them sisters ready for school tomorrow :D I am such a responsible person nowadays. Its an oddity to my surroundings, bad to few but perfect to the government.

Good nights!

personal statement

I am not the people and places I grew up with, though I adapt to them, i strive to be even just a little bit different. To be my own person with my own unique identity.

I was extremely silent and odd as a child. I would keep to myself, read story books kids my age did not even think of reading for example Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen, play alone in the garden, chat with the plants, animals and even to the rocks! and I must confess, I would dig up all sorts of insects from the ground just to cut them in half to see what was in them. The television was never a distraction to me because I found it more of a luxury than a necessity. Moreover, I did not like sitting at one place for hours, I loved the outdoors, the experience of being outdoors made me feel free.

Unfortunately, not everyone can have the same wants, needs curiosity and personality as they grow up. Although I still have many of the same qualities I had as a child, my experience feels somehow incomplete. I can’t help but feel that I am stuck in that murky place between where dreams are conceived and dreams are realized. Let me explain:

My parents got a divorce when I was fifteen. The constant fights that they had before the divorce, during and after it changed me into from a carefree, happy-go-lucky person into an emotional wreck. I became self- destructive and no longer cared about my education and social life. I just wanted to be left alone in my depth of despair. Somehow, I managed to pull through and got myself out of that deep black hole and learned to smile, laugh, hope, believe and make friends again thru Karate and athletics. I finally started to believe and trust in God and people around me.

My mother remarried when I was sixteen to a very , very agreeable younger man. My sisters absolutely adore him and the feeling is reciprocated. Even though he cannot and will never be able to be a father to me as I am too old and he is too young for me to be looked at as his daughter, I like having him around. He makes my mum and sisters happy and that is good enough for me. Furthermore, its nice to see his bald and shiny head around, it reminds me to be thankful that I am blessed with a head of hair.

It took me a lot of self – motivation, poetry and food to get me out of my depressed state. The result was every girls’ nightmare, a fatter and frowny image. I realised that no matter what happens, we need to stay optimistic, strong and never give up on ourselves.

Spending the next two years at Fairview would help me distinguish myself as an individual. I love the fact that the IBDP pushes us to be the very best that we can, and encourages us to be open- minded,  think critically and creatively and to apply what we learn outside of the classroom.  I believe it is the perfect education for me, as it would enhance my sense of independence, security, broaden my horizons and expose myself to the many cultures of the world. In return, I hope I could help the world in any way I could.

Having said that and with a restless spirit and a fierce eagerness to learn, I believe I would be a great asset to Fairview International for this program. If accepted, I plan to pursue my education with a new kind of passion, one that becomes stronger for me every day: the passion for independence.

-Hayani-

This is my personal statement to college I just thought I’d share it just incase if anyone wants an example of a personal statement. Do not reuse, copy and paste and claim it to be yours. Write your own. Plus, mine is not very good.

4/1/12

Happy New Year ! :)

I know I’m late but as the quote goes, better late than never!

So I’m off the hook ;)

By the way,

I PASSED MY DRIVERS EDUCATION CURRICULUM EXAM!!

I like I like I like I like I like I like I like I like I like I like I like.

You like? no no no. I love I love I love I love I love <3

It 2012 this year, so the world might end? Well then you are a believer, go ahead and do amazing things.

In my point of view, end of the world or not, you should always do amazing things with your life. Keep it interesting (: Its very Good for the soul.

That’s it for me folks. If you happen to see me, do say Hi :)

Credits to Dania Edina

p.s: I forgot, from the previous post. This always happen. But I guess I’m the guy. I bet he doesn’t feel the same, oh well. HAHA. Pessimist.

Sparkles and Sparks <3

This is a tribute to the only person I know whom thinks “<3” means less than 3 (mathematically) . If you’re reading this and you are not sure what “<3” means, whomever you are, darling it is actually a heart shape okay? :)
Just in case you were wondering what a heart shape is..
William Butler Yeats once wrote “Hearts are not had as a gift but hearts are earned” . How do you earn a heart? You do not because its part of the free will and people do what they choose with their will. Unfortunately , this post is not directed to contradict Mr. Yeats. Maybe some other time ;) This post is for Sparkles.
This is how we met;

Karate. From here, you should be able to conclude that he has seen me at my very, very worst. That was 2 years ago.
We use to talk on Skype until 4am but no, it never worked out even though I had a huge crush on him. I gave up. Mainly because I knew he liked someone else. No matter, I will tell you why I fell.

Its his eyes.

They’re so SPARKLY :O

Other than that, its his “the-very-laid-back-but-still-focus-and-determined” personality . I don’t know. He just has this dominance over me whenever he interacts with me. It almost as though his masculinity can be felt thru every aspect of interaction he has with me.
Okay. I don’t exactly know what I’m rambling about. I mean masculinity whats’ with that ? –.-“
So , I really do not feel like doing the girly confession of the why I like him. Dude, Common sense. Great personality, sparkly eyes, mixed and if you read my previous post click here (First and second line of the second paragraph). He fits me :D , amuses me, accepts me, defines me, completes me , amazes me, knows me and the list goes on and perhaps never ends.
I’ll just tell you a lil’ bit about him (:
He’s currently doing his Foundation in Physical Science at University Malaya. Smart boy, he is :D He doesn’t go to class much because he likes to sleep but I really hope even though that is his case, he will still score. Need to keep them parents happy y’know? :P
He wears specs by the way –->

Sometimes when I’m hugging him, I feel like the world is at peace. Then I realise that its just his heartbeat. Its so calming .

Ignore the girl side of me. Its over – bearing sometimes . Forgive me for not have banished it long ago but I still have boobs you know. Okay I know. Lame.
In other news, He is a musician :D

The Guitar and Piano are just a few of the countless instruments that he is able to play . He’s talented. I hope he knows that for a talent not known is a talent lost.
oh, I forgot to tell you one very important detail. He’s half Persian . You can start laughing now. AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH . Okay stop. No, you’re wrong but you still may laugh. He is not a terrorist by the way , though
he can pull this look off –>
Hmm, What else shall I tell you , dear reader? You’re supposed to be bored to death by now.

oh look! Its the Flag of India :D Woopee!

My mother likes him . okay last picture of him. If you can’t recognise him after reading this then you’re just plain blur or simply uncaring towards this subject which then I would have to ask you why you are still reading this. lol.
Taken at my house on my laptop :D I know camera sucks.
I bet you’re reading this sparkles, and laughing your butt off –.- Laugh lah. You might never hear this from me so you might as well read it from me.

I did not tell you his name? Forget it. I’ll leave it up to your diligence in read the tags.






OKAY . UGH.
My specs. You jelly? Muahaha

Have great week reader(s)! :D I love you :)

So keep reading! AHAHAHA (Publicity stint)

-Hayani-