Do you know me? I bet you do not. Most people only think they know their friends and or family. Truth is you only know what those individuals want you to know.
You do not know me. Nobody does. I do not understand it myself but I can make a wild attempt at trying to explain it.
You see, I am and have always been a fickle minded person.
I am a Scorpio. My emotions are intense.
What I want and what I need are two very different things. When I say I need something, I really mean I want. When I say I want something does not necessarily mean I need it. I do not know what I need yet, I do know. I perhaps, just refuse to acknowledge it.
I walk my road not exactly alone but lonely.
In a snap , I can tell you my lifes’ story without crying. I am all out of tears on that topic, BUT if you ask me more and more intricately. I just might shed tears. Everyone is acquainted with me but nobody knows everything about me. Nobody, mark my word for it.
I lie to myself. So, even I do not know myself.
The things I do no matter how weird, odd, eccentric, cheery, loud or ominous are just another mask and habit I have. I do not fancy letting people feel the way I do. Lonely, betrayed and invaded.
I like to entertain.
You could say that, I am like a clown. All smiles but when you remove the makeup, you see wrinkles, worries, frowns, regrets, despair. Runaway brides are very pitiful but not as pitiful as runaway grooms. Poor unsuspecting bride to be :(
Yes, I am a Hypocrite.
Deal with it. I had to deal with my fathers’ hypocritical state. So , you will deal with mine.
I' have had enough of writing today.
All emotional because of my 89% for SPM English Trial Exam. Sucks to be me. No worries, I WILL MEMORISE THE WHOLE BLOODY THESAURUS OR DIE TRYING.
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